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24 October, Monday – The Rage In Her Heart

24 October – Memorial for St. Anthony Mary Claret, Bishop

Anthony Mary Claret (1807–1870) was a weaver and a seminary student with Blessed Francis Coll. He was ordained on 13 June 1835, and became a missionary in Catalonia and the Canary Islands. He directed retreats and founded the Congregation of Missionary Sons of the Immaculate Heart of Mary (Claretians). He became Archbishop of Santiago de Cuba on 20 May 1850, and founded the Teaching Sisters of Mary Immaculate.
Following his work in the Caribbean, Blessed Pope Pius IX ordered him back to Spain where he became confessor to Queen Isabella II and was exiled with her. He had the gift of prophecy and miracles, and was reported to have preached 10,000 sermons, published 200 works. He spread devotion to the Blessed Sacrament and the Immaculate Heart of Mary.

– Patron Saint Index

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Ephesians 4:32-5:8

Be friends with one another, and kind, forgiving each other as readily as God forgave you in Christ.

Try, then, to imitate God as children of his that he loves and follow Christ loving as he loved you, giving himself up in our place as a fragrant offering and a sacrifice to God. Among you there must be not even a mention of fornication or impurity in any of its forms, or promiscuity: this would hardly become the saints! There must be no coarseness, or salacious talk and jokes – all this is wrong for you; raise your voices in thanksgiving instead. For you can be quite certain that nobody who actually indulges in fornication or impurity or promiscuity – which is worshipping a false god – can inherit anything of the kingdom of God. Do not let anyone deceive you with empty arguments: it is for this loose living that God’s anger comes down on those who rebel against him. Make sure that you are not included with them. You were darkness once, but now you are light in the Lord; be like children of light.

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Luke 13:10-17

One sabbath day Jesus was teaching in one of the synagogues, and a woman was there who for eighteen years had been possessed by a spirit that left her enfeebled; she was bent double and quite unable to stand upright. When Jesus saw her he called her over and said, ‘Woman, you are rid of your infirmity’ and he laid his hands on her. And at once she straightened up, and she glorified God.

But the synagogue official was indignant because Jesus had healed on the sabbath, and he addressed the people present. ‘There are six days’ he said ‘when work is to be done. Come and be healed on one of those days and not on the sabbath.’ But the Lord answered him. ‘Hypocrites!’ he said ‘Is there one of you who does not untie his ox or his donkey from the manger on the sabbath and take it out for watering? And this woman, a daughter of Abraham whom Satan has held bound these eighteen years – was it not right to untie her bonds on the sabbath day?’ When he said this, all his adversaries were covered with confusion, and all the people were overjoyed at all the wonders he worked.

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And a woman was there who for eighteen years had been crippled by a spirit

­My grandmother died with anger in her heart. Hers was a slow deterioration — a long, sad, bewildering goodbye. I feel she lost herself before she left us. Towards the end, she seemed to obsess over things that had happened years ago, old hurts that had been inflicted on her, but she would forget what you said to her ten minutes before. She was like a different person altogether. Who was once a loving, happy force in my life, changed into someone I didn’t recognize. It was as if a black pall came over her. When she finally let go and breathed her last, it felt like she had been set free. Whatever evil had taken hold of her mind, it was gone and she had returned to God.

I’ll never understand why her manner changed towards the end. I read that the dying know their time is up, and as the days pass, they relinquish more of the banalities of life, until what’s left is just the essence of their soul. It hurts me to think it was anger that resided at the core of her heart. Anger and bitterness. Because in life, she wasn’t like that. She was a beautiful person. I still don’t know what could have happened to change her at the end, or how the unresolved conflicts in her life became so large that they consumed her.

In today’s gospel, we read that the woman was gripped by an evil spirit. That’s what anger does to the heart when we hold on to it. Grudges, nurtured by resentment and unforgiveness, become hatred with the passage of time. Caught up in our rage, love dies in our heart. My grandmother pushed everyone away at the end. She didn’t mean to, she just couldn’t help herself. Her anger defined her and she died holding on to it.

I want to believe that she is with Jesus now, that he has freed her from the rage that held her hostage at the end. I pray he frees us too, those of us who loved her but were stung by her sharp words at the end. Those of us she left behind, who are still holding on to the hurt and confusion in our hearts. I want to only remember the loving, devoted woman who was so much a part of my happy childhood. I pray that she is at peace now. I pray she is with God now.

(Today’s Oxygen by Sharon Soo)

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Prayer: We pray for those who have passed on, may they find the peace that eluded them in life.

Thanksgiving: We give thanks for the Holy Spirit, who calms us during the storms of our life, who saves us from ourselves.

7 July, Thursday – Stay The Hand

7 July

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Hosea 11:1-4,8-9

Thus says the Lord:

When Israel was a child I loved him,
and I called my son out of Egypt.
But the more I called to them, the further they went from me;
they have offered sacrifice to the Baals
and set their offerings smoking before the idols.
I myself taught Ephraim to walk,
I took them in my arms;
yet they have not understood that I was the one looking after them.
I led them with reins of kindness,
with leading-strings of love.
I was like someone who lifts an infant close against his cheek;
stooping down to him I gave him his food.

Ephraim, how could I part with you?
Israel, how could I give you up?
How could I treat you like Admah,
or deal with you like Zeboiim?
My heart recoils from it,
my whole being trembles at the thought.
I will not give rein to my fierce anger,
I will not destroy Ephraim again,
for I am God, not man:
I am the Holy One in your midst
and have no wish to destroy.

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Matthew 10:7-15

Jesus instructed the Twelve as follows: ‘As you go, proclaim that the kingdom of heaven is close at hand. Cure the sick, raise the dead, cleanse the lepers, cast out devils. You received without charge, give without charge. Provide yourselves with no gold or silver, not even with a few coppers for your purses, with no haversack for the journey or spare tunic or footwear or a staff, for the workman deserves his keep.

‘Whatever town or village you go into, ask for someone trustworthy and stay with him until you leave. As you enter his house, salute it, and if the house deserves it, let your peace descend upon it; if it does not, let your peace come back to you. And if anyone does not welcome you or listen to what you have to say, as you walk out of the house or town shake the dust from your feet. I tell you solemnly, on the day of Judgement it will not go as hard with the land of Sodom and Gomorrah as with that town.’

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I will not give rein to my fierce anger, I will not destroy Ephraim again, for I am God, not man: I am the Holy One in your midst, and have no wish to destroy

I have a terrible temper, I will own up to that, and my family will attest to that. When I was younger, I had no idea how to rein it in. Now that I am much older, I hope that I have learnt more patience. I know I have, ever since discovering God. But every now and then, it rears its ugly head and in the heat of anger, I sometimes say or do things that I regret. It scares me how easily I can give in to my anger sometimes’ because more often than not, it is my loved ones that bear the brunt of it. It is destructive for me as well, and for the relationships that I have with my husband and family, and with God. Of late, I have taken to praying fervently each time I feel as though I am getting upset. I pray that it doesn’t boil over. I pray for strength and patience, for God to help guide my heart and guard my mouth.

I’m not perfect, but I don’t believe I’m a bad person either. Yes, I have a temper as I suppose do most of us. But that doesn’t mean that we are bad people. There are plenty of people in the Bible who displayed moments of anger: Jesus was so angry that God’s temple had been used as a ‘market place’ and overturned the tables of the money changers (Matthew 21:12). Moses was enraged at the people for creating and worshipping a golden calf right after God brought them out of Egypt that he smashed the two tablets containing the Ten Commandments. And this was after he implored with God not to be angry at the people and stay His hand (Exodus 32:7-14). The point is that we should take a leaf out of the Bible and follow God’s example when we get upset.

When we are angry, we should not let it consume us. Don’t keep the bitterness in our heart and let it stew. If it still nags at us, try to reconcile with the other person if possible. If we are angry, and we allow ourselves to keep being angry, then we also allow the Devil to take advantage of our anger and sin in our anger (Ephesians 4:26-27). When two sparks come together, it can only create a fire which, if not checked, will spread and destroy everything in its path.

“The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger and abounding in loving kindness” says Psalm 103:8. Let us too then be compassionate and slow to anger. Let us be more forgiving, and also sometimes be the first ones to seek forgiveness. If our hearts sincerely seek a peaceful resolution, we may surprise ourselves that that is what the other party is looking for too.

(Today’s OXYGEN by Annette Soo)

Prayer: Lord, when I am angry and am unable to control myself, please help me to curb my anger lest I may say or do things that I regret. Let the Holy Spirit be upon me that I may be soothed. Help me to control it so that it doesn’t flare up into something bigger than I can manage oh Lord. I pray that in my anger, no one will be hurt. 

Thanksgiving: Thank you Lord, for the times when you stayed my hand and guarded my tongue so that I would not do anything that would sin against you. I pray for Your mercy and forgiveness for the times when I let my anger overwhelm me. Help me Lord not to sin again.

24 April, Sunday – Love Everyone

24 April – Fifth Sunday of Easter

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Acts 14:21-27

Paul and Barnabas went back through Lystra and Iconium to Antioch. They put fresh heart into the disciples, encouraging them to persevere in the faith. ‘We all have to experience many hardships’ they said ‘before we enter the kingdom of God.’ In each of these churches they appointed elders, and with prayer and fasting they commended them to the Lord in whom they had come to believe.

  They passed through Pisidia and reached Pamphylia. Then after proclaiming the word at Perga they went down to Attalia and from there sailed for Antioch, where they had originally been commended to the grace of God for the work they had now completed.

  On their arrival they assembled the church and gave an account of all that God had done with them, and how he had opened the door of faith to the pagans.

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Apocalypse 21:1-5

I, John, saw a new heaven and a new earth; the first heaven and the first earth had disappeared now, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the holy city, and the new Jerusalem, coming down from God out of heaven, as beautiful as a bride all dressed for her husband. Then I heard a loud voice call from the throne, ‘You see this city? Here God lives among men. He will make his home among them; they shall be his people, and he will be their God; his name is God-with-them. He will wipe away all tears from their eyes; there will be no more death, and no more mourning or sadness. The world of the past has gone.’

  Then the One sitting on the throne spoke: ‘Now I am making the whole of creation new.’

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John 13:31-33,34-35

When Judas had gone Jesus said:

‘Now has the Son of Man been glorified,
and in him God has been glorified.
If God has been glorified in him,
God will in turn glorify him in himself,
and will glorify him very soon.

‘My little children,
I shall not be with you much longer.
I give you a new commandment:
love one another;
just as I have loved you,
you also must love one another.
By this love you have for one another,
everyone will know that you are my disciples.’

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I give you another commandment; love one another. Just as I have loved you, you must also love one another.

In the book of Exodus, God gave Moses the Ten Commandments. Fast forward to the New Testament and Jesus gives his disciples this new (and final) commandment – Love one another just as I have loved you. This order from our REAL Commander-In-Chief sums up the original Ten Commandments, and is also (to me anyway) the toughest one to follow. To love someone seems easy, especially if it is someone whom we actually like. We willingly dish out respect, honour their wishes, and do almost anything to make and keep them happy. We’re also willing to forgive their mistakes at the slightest hint of an apology. Sometimes, no apology is even necessary.

When I saw this verse, the first thing that popped in my head was my vengefulness. I have real issues with people who have wronged me. Even if it was just once many years ago, that demon known as Vengeance will still come back to torment me. I have tried many times to let go, but trust me when I say it is not easy. Sometimes, I think I have finally let go but if they do just one tiny thing wrong, I will immediately be fuming on the inside.

This is where turning to the Bible has helped me a lot. It has revealed to me how Jesus truly lived. Not just what I learnt in Sunday School. Although those early Sunday morning lessons did help shape some of my Christianity, it cannot compare to what actually reading, and absorbing, the Word has done for my faith. Prayer has also been a source of soul-comfort.

In today’s Gospel, we are called to follow Jesus’ example and Jesus was all about love. He was sent to save the downtrodden, the hurt, the misguided, the marginalised, the hated. In a nutshell, the ones who are the most difficult to love. He performed so many miracles for them much to the chagrin of many of his disciples. Yet, He didn’t care because He knew that God created us to love each other, just as God loves us.

Brothers and sisters, let us emulate the same type of love that Jesus showed everyone more than 2,000 years ago. Let us be willing to treat everyone the same way we treat our own loved ones. Let us spread the same love God shows us to the rest of the world.

(Today’s OXYGEN by Rebecca Grace)

Prayer – Lord, we pray for the courage to give the same kind of love that Your son showed us. There will be many times when our egos get in the way of doing your works of love. When this happens, Lord, we beg for your forgiveness. Enable us, Lord, to show the world the same kind of forgiveness You give us. Amen.

Thanksgiving – Lord, we give you thanks for the gift of the Word. The Word that heals and the Word that guides us as we take each and every step closer to you. Amen.