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4 Aug, Sunday – Minimum is Maximum

4 August 2019

Christ Who is Everything And In Everything

Today our thoughts are on heavenly things, not on the things of earth where without Christ all is vanity and great injustice. 

– The Sunday Missal

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Ecclesiastes 1:2,2:21-23

Vanity of vanities, the Preacher says. Vanity of vanities. All is vanity!

For so it is that a man who has laboured wisely, skilfully and successfully must leave what is his own to someone who has not toiled for it at all. This, too, is vanity and great injustice; for what does he gain for all the toil and strain that he has undergone under the sun? What of all his laborious days, his cares of office, his restless nights? This, too, is vanity.

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Colossians 3:1-5,9-11

Since you have been brought back to true life with Christ, you must look for the things that are in heaven, where Christ is, sitting at God’s right hand. Let your thoughts be on heavenly things, not on the things that are on the earth, because you have died, and now the life you have is hidden with Christ in God. But when Christ is revealed – and he is your life – you too will be revealed in all your glory with him.

That is why you must kill everything in you that belongs only to earthly life: fornication, impurity, guilty passion, evil desires and especially greed, which is the same thing as worshipping a false god; and never tell each other lies. You have stripped off your old behaviour with your old self, and you have put on a new self which will progress towards true knowledge the more it is renewed in the image of its creator; and in that image there is no room for distinction between Greek and Jew, between the circumcised or the uncircumcised, or between barbarian and Scythian, slave and free man. There is only Christ: he is everything and he is in everything.

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Luke 12:13-21

A man in the crowd said to Jesus, ‘Master, tell my brother to give me a share of our inheritance.’ ‘My friend,’ he replied, ‘who appointed me your judge, or the arbitrator of your claims?’ Then he said to them, ‘Watch, and be on your guard against avarice of any kind, for a man’s life is not made secure by what he owns, even when he has more than he needs.’

Then he told them a parable: ‘There was once a rich man who, having had a good harvest from his land, thought to himself, “What am I to do? I have not enough room to store my crops.” Then he said, “This is what I will do: I will pull down my barns and build bigger ones, and store all my grain and my goods in them, and I will say to my soul: My soul, you have plenty of good things laid by for many years to come; take things easy, eat, drink, have a good time.” But God said to him, “Fool! This very night the demand will be made for your soul; and this hoard of yours, whose will it be then?” So it is when a man stores up treasure for himself in place of making himself rich in the sight of God.’

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So it is when a man stores up treasure for himself in place of making himself rich in the sight of God.

How do you measure success? Each one of us has a different perspective of what success is. Some may say that if you own a house, a car, and travel most of the time, then you are successful. I don’t have my own house. I don’t drive my own car. And I don’t travel. Do I feel unsuccessful? I don’t. I can’t exactly describe how I am feeling, but I can say that I am happy and content. I am taking a new path in which I feel fulfilled. The salary is not that much, and it is not even enough to pay my bills. Why do I choose to continue this career? Because I feel that it is the right thing to do. My current compensation is one-third compared to my previous job. Thank God I am frugal and I was able to save some money from my previous work in order for me to pay my bills for the next few months. There is some fear in me because I don’t know how long my savings would last. But I know God will help me find ways because He knows that I am working hard.

Some may describe that what I do is charity. I do like the sound of it. I am currently a faculty in a community college. There are people asking, why not go to a university? Why…? I also ask myself the same thing. For me it doesn’t matter if I am in a community college or in a university. For practical reasons, I chose the community college since it is near my home. All college students have their common goal – to graduate and to earn their degree.

I left my corporate job because I felt that I could no longer do anything more for them. The toxicity level was getting higher and my personal values were being compromised. Going back to the question, why not go to a university? If everyone goes to a university, who would stay in the community college? With everything being so fast-paced, I am hopeful that I can reach out to the students in our community college. I have this personal goal that I will be able to teach their minds and touch their hearts, so that it will eventually transform their lives. I pray to God that He blesses whatever choices that I will make. I also pray that whatever I do, it will lead me to closer to Christ.

Who does not need money? We all need it to buy all our necessities and to pay for our bills. With all the things that my family is facing, I left the job that could help pay our debts. I am not suggesting that you also do the same. It depends on the situation.

Why do we do things that we do? Is it to please others or to please God? What do we do when we have more than enough? Do we keep it to ourselves or do we share it with others?

(Today’s OXYGEN by Beryl Baterina)

Prayer: Father God, please guide my heart to desire only what you want for me.

Thanksgiving: Thank you Father, for all the graces that you have given us.

11 December, Tuesday – Searching

11 December – Memorial for St. Damasus I, Pope

Damasus (306-384) was raised in a pious family. His father was a priest in Rome, and Damasus served for a time as deacon in his father’s church, St. Laurence. He was ordained a priest and became assistant to Pope Liberius. He was elected the 37th pope in a disputed election in which a minority chose the anti-pope Ursinus. The two reigned simultaneously in Rome which eventually led to violence between their supporters and Damasus’ false accusation of a crime.

His pontificate suffered from the rise of Arianism, and from several schisms including break-away groups in Antioch, Constantinople, Sardinia, and Rome. However, it was during his reign that Christianity was declared the religion of the Roman state. He enforced the 370 edict of Emperor Valentinian controlling gifts to prelates, and opposed Arianism and Apollinarianism. He supported the 374 council of Rome which decreed the valid books of the Bible, and the Grand Council of Constantinople in 381 which condemned Arianism.

He was the patron of his secretary, St. Jerome, and commissioned him to make the translation of scripture now known as the Vulgate. Damasus restored catacombs, shrines, and the tombs of martyrs, and wrote poetry and metrical inscriptions about and dedicated to martyrs. They state that he would like to be buried in the catacombs with the early martyrs, but that the presence of one of his lowly status would profane such an august place. Ten of his letters, personal and pontifical, have survived.

– Patron Saint Index

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Isaiah 40:1-11

‘Console my people, console them’
says your God.
‘Speak to the heart of Jerusalem
and call to her
that her time of service is ended,
that her sin is atoned for,
that she has received from the hand of the Lord
double punishment for all her crimes.’

A voice cries, ‘Prepare in the wilderness
a way for the Lord.
Make a straight highway for our God
across the desert.
Let every valley be filled in,
every mountain and hill be laid low.
Let every cliff become a plain,
and the ridges a valley;
then the glory of the Lord shall be revealed
and all mankind shall see it;
for the mouth of the Lord has spoken.’

A voice commands, ‘Cry!’
and I answered, ‘What shall I cry?’”
– ‘All flesh is grass
and its beauty like the wild flower’s.
The grass withers, the flower fades
when the breath of the Lord blows on them.
(The grass is without doubt the people.)
The grass withers, the flower fades,
but the word of our God remains for ever.’

Go up on a high mountain,
joyful messenger to Zion.
Shout with a loud voice,
joyful messenger to Jerusalem.
Shout without fear,
say to the towns of Judah,
‘Here is your God.’

Here is the Lord coming with power,
his arm subduing all things to him.
The prize of his victory is with him,
his trophies all go before him.
He is like a shepherd feeding his flock,
gathering lambs in his arms,
holding them against his breast
and leading to their rest the mother ewes.

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Matthew 18:12-14

Jesus said to his disciples, ‘Tell me. Suppose a man has a hundred sheep and one of them strays; will he not leave the ninety-nine on the hillside and go in search of the stray? I tell you solemnly, if he finds it, it gives him more joy than do the ninety-nine that did not stray at all. Similarly, it is never the will of your Father in heaven that one of these little ones should be lost.’

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“It is never the will of your Father in heaven that one of these little ones should be lost.”

What is it we are searching for? What is it that we truly desire? We study, work, argue, fight, politic all because we desire to — survive? So that we may lead a comfortable life? Are we then ever comfortable?

Especially as we prepare for the coming of Christ this Christmas, what is it we are preparing for? Are we even searching? What are we searching for? Where are we searching?

As in the Gospel today, God desires for us to be with Him. He searches for us but He also respects us, waiting for us to open the door of our hearts, of our lives to Him. As with the parables of The Lost Coin, The Prodigal Son, The Lost Sheep, it’s not about if we are lost, but whether we desire to return, to allow ourselves to be found. Or do we continuously run further away because we can’t face ourselves for all that we’ve done? As with the parables, God rejoices when we return but, more than that, deep down within ourselves, we know that is what we have always been searching for.

To me, I believe, it is love. To know that we matter, to know that there is someone out there who cares for us, not because of what we have, not because of what we can do but because he/she simply just wants to. It is also those people who are easiest to take for granted, our parents, teachers, our loved ones, our God. They are always there for us, but always hurting the most while waiting for us to return.

In chasing after so many of our desires, we lose ourselves, our values, our dignity, our integrity, our true and initial desire. Let us slow down, to recollect what is it we actually want, what is it we actually need, who we actually are.

Let us search for our true selves, let us be open, to allow Christ into our lives this Christmas. Let us be found.

(Today’s Oxygen by Benjamin Mao)

Prayer:  Dear Lord, we pray that we may not be distracted in our search for our true desire, the purpose of our lives. We also pray that we may encounter you in a very special way this Christmas. Help us to return to you.

Thanksgiving:  Thank you Lord, for always being present. For your love and mercy. For desiring our return. Thank you for accepting us for who we are.

13 November, Tuesday – Fleeting Worldly Possessions

13 November

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Titus 2:1-8,11-14

It is for you to preach the behaviour which goes with healthy doctrine. The older men should be reserved, dignified, moderate, sound in faith and love and constancy. Similarly, the older women should behave as though they were religious, with no scandal-mongering and no habitual wine-drinking – they are to be the teachers of the right behaviour and show the younger women how they should love their husbands and love their children, how they are to be sensible and chaste, and how to work in their homes, and be gentle, and do as their husbands tell them, so that the message of God is never disgraced. In the same way, you have got to persuade the younger men to be moderate and in everything you do make yourself an example to them of working for good: when you are teaching, be an example to them in your sincerity and earnestness and in keeping all that you say so wholesome that nobody can make objections to it; and then any opponent will be at a loss, with no accusation to make against us. You see, God’s grace has been revealed, and it has made salvation possible for the whole human race and taught us that what we have to do is to give up everything that does not lead to God, and all our worldly ambitions; we must be self-restrained and live good and religious lives here in this present world, while we are waiting in hope for the blessing which will come with the Appearing of the glory of our great God and saviour Christ Jesus. He sacrificed himself for us in order to set us free from all wickedness and to purify a people so that it could be his very own and would have no ambition except to do good.

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Luke 17:7-10

Jesus said to his disciples, ‘Which of you, with a servant ploughing or minding sheep, would say to him when he returned from the fields, “Come and have your meal immediately”? Would he not be more likely to say, “Get my supper laid; make yourself tidy and wait on me while I eat and drink. You can eat and drink yourself afterwards”? Must he be grateful to the servant for doing what he was told? So with you: when you have done all you have been told to do, say, “We are merely servants: we have done no more than our duty.”’

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For the grace of God has appeared, saving all and training us to reject godless ways and worldly desires and to live temperately, justly and devoutly in this age…

All my friends and family have been raving about the movie “Crazy Rich Asians”.  I guess I am one of the few people that hasn’t seen the movie yet.  Honestly, living in North America, there is growing resentment towards the ‘nouveau riche’, and well-to-do Asians and immigrants. General public opinion blames them for a lot of the country’s real estate market woes. The thought of sitting through a movie based on wealthy Asians and all its stereotypes and clichés made me cringe.

Then just this week, I came upon the book (which the movie is based on) and decided to give it a read. It was entertaining as I read more, I realized that it was not just a romance novel nor a Cinderella tale. It is an ‘in your face’, satirical look at the lives of people who appear to have it all, yet who are truly unhappy.  They don’t have many, if any, meaningful friendships or relationships and are constantly trying to outdo each other. They have placed great importance on things of a transient nature above the one eternal truth. This may be a depiction of reality for some people or a pure work of fiction; whatever the case, I am reminded of one of the sermons of Bishop Barron.

In his sermon, the Bishop talked about the preoccupation and pursuit of wealth, power, honour, passion and other worldly things. These are not necessarily bad things on their own — we all seek them in one way or another. The danger comes when we forget that these are all temporary and fleeting. In fact, our time on earth is temporary and fleeting. Our goal is eternal union with our God and we should set our sights upon heavenly things. We need to see the good, the truth and the beautiful things of this world in proper prospective. We need to understand that all comes from God and to see everything in the light of God. We need to learn the value of these transient things in the light of Christ, without clinging to them, without putting too much importance or expecting too much from them. For if we place more importance on the things of the world instead of heaven, if we follow our worldly desires instead of our saviour; then for sure, we will lose sight of the eternal goal and ourselves along the way.

(Today’s OXYGEN by Winnie Kung)

Prayer: Dear Lord, we pray that we set our hearts and minds on what is truly important and eternal; let us not fall into the trap of the material world and lose sight of our goal of being in communion with you.

Thanksgiving: We thank you for granting us your grace to help us battle the temptations of this world.

22 July, Saturday – Seeking God Passionately

Jul 22 – Memorial for St. Mary Magdalene

There is actually very little solid information about her, and both scholars and traditions differ on the interpretation of what we do know.

She was a friend and follower of Jesus. Filled with sorrow over her sin, she anointed Christ and washed his feet with her hair. He exorcised seven demons from her. She was the first to have been visited by the Risen Christ. While there are several arguments about her life after the Crucifixion, the Greek Church maintains that she retired to Ephesus with the Blessed Virgin Mary and lived there the rest of her life.

Some things we do know for certain – Mary wasn’t Jesus’ wife nor mistress, she wasn’t the mother of His child, and she didn’t found a royal dynasty or separate branch of Christianity.

http://www.carr.org/~meripper/saints/saints-m.htm

– Patron Saint Index

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Song of Songs 3:1-4

All night long on my bed
I looked for the one my heart loves;
I looked for him but did not find him.

 I will get up now and go about the city,
through its streets and squares;
I will search for the one my heart loves.
So I looked for him but did not find him.

The watchmen found me
as they made their rounds in the city.
“Have you seen the one my heart loves?”

Scarcely had I passed them
when I found the one my heart loves.
I held him and would not let him go
till I had brought him to my mother’s house,
to the room of the one who conceived me.

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John 20:1-2, 11-18

It was very early on the first day of the week and still dark, when Mary of Magdala came to the tomb. She saw that the stone had been moved away from the tomb and came running to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one Jesus loved. ‘They have taken the Lord out of the tomb’ she said ‘and we don’t know where they have put him.’

Meanwhile Mary stayed outside near the tomb, weeping. Then, still weeping, she stooped to look inside, and saw two angels in white sitting where the body of Jesus had been, one at the head, the other at the feet. They said, ‘Woman, why are you weeping?’ ‘They have taken my Lord away’ she replied ‘and I don’t know where they have put him.’ As she said this she turned round and saw Jesus standing there, though she did not recognise him. Jesus said, ‘Woman, why are you weeping? Who are you looking for?’ Supposing him to be the gardener, she said, ‘Sir, if you have taken him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will go and remove him.’ Jesus said, ‘Mary!’ She knew him then and said to him in Hebrew, ‘Rabbuni!’ – which means Master. Jesus said to her, ‘Do not cling to me, because I have not yet ascended to the Father. But go and find the brothers, and tell them: I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.’ So Mary of Magdala went and told the disciples that she had seen the Lord and that he had said these things to her.

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“Who are you looking for?”

The first reading of today from the Song of Songs speaks of the longing of a bride for her beloved; she seeks him and looks for him all over the city. She asks the watchmen if they have seen him on their rounds, to no avail.

A few years ago, my wife went on a work assignment to New York for a few months. Because of the time difference, we could only speak twice a day — once in the morning and once at night. In spite of the daily conversations, I found myself longing for her return. Having been married for about 16 years then, I found myself missing her dearly. While we do not spend our time together talking all the time, I find comfort and strength being with her.

Similarly, Jesus’ disciples (the women too) felt a loss after His death. While Jesus had just died on the cross, the disciples and the women were distraught when they could not find His body. One could sense their desperation in the Gospel passage of today, and their joy when Mary of Magdala recognised Jesus.

For many years since I had been baptised as a teen, I felt that God was somewhat detached. I had prayed on a more-or-less regular basis, as was taught to me, but I was not sure that my prayers and conversations with God were even heard.

Since then, I have had numerous experiences of God, but it was during the Conversion Experience Retreat that came to the biggest realisation of how God loved me. Over the week at the retreat, I felt the love of God for the first time, and, just like my relationship with my wife, I experienced a longing for His presence in my life.

As we travel along our faith journey, it is important that we develop a strong desire for Jesus, like the bride for her groom and like the disciples for their Teacher. Without this, our faith can only be lukewarm. Let us pray for, and desire for, red-hot faith!

(Today’s Oxygen by Paul Wee)

Prayer Father, let us desire to know You more and more each day. Help us always to seek You in our lives.

Thanksgiving Jesus Lord, thank You for teaching us what is truly important; to love You more each day. Thank You for being there no matter what the circumstances in our lives.